That's how I feel.
And I only wish I were talking about my weight.
And I only wish I were talking about my weight.
I hesitate to write this kind of post because I don't like to focus on the negative. I realize that most things in life have a way of working themselves out and I don't really see the point in wallowing. But I got an email from a reader recently that subtly suggested that I was fake and full of crap and it got me thinking about the way that I portray my life here on my blog. My life is far from perfect (hello, I live in my mil's basement!) and I would hate for anyone to think that it is. So in the interest of keeping it real I thought I would share what a crappy month I just had. Enjoy!
It started literally on the day I got home from Indiana with some run of the mill family drama that spiraled waaay out of control. Somehow my Switzerland clause was breached and I got sucked into the whole sorry mess. I won't go into details but World War III was only just barely averted.
Shye has been sick for the better part of the last two months. She has been getting viruses on top of viruses. And now she is starting to have reactions to some the meds the Dr. gave her. I never realized how lucky I was that this girl never got sick. Now she is making up for it with gusto. I've been sick too, which isn't so bad by itself but when you have a sick baby it just makes it so much worse.
Shye has been sick for the better part of the last two months. She has been getting viruses on top of viruses. And now she is starting to have reactions to some the meds the Dr. gave her. I never realized how lucky I was that this girl never got sick. Now she is making up for it with gusto. I've been sick too, which isn't so bad by itself but when you have a sick baby it just makes it so much worse.
Theeeen there was the election. I suppose there is no explanation necessary about that being a joyfest that STILL hasn't ended.
Brian's car broke down (goodbye Christmas presents!), then a week later my car broke down (goodbye Christmas presents 2013!). As if that all wasn't bad enough, one of my hearing aids decided to join in on the Great Mechanincal Break Down Party of 2012 (Shye doesn't need to go to college anyway, right?).
Speaking of money, don't fiscal cliffs sound sort of romantic? They do to me, since Brian and I are in a bottomless fiscal abyss also known as Grad School Loans.
And then top it all off, episode 5 (season 3) of Downton Abbey had to go and rip my heart out of my chest and stomp on it. I still sob into my pillow at night over it.
So welcome to my sunshine and bubble filled life.
Be a dear and pass the Valium.
So welcome to my sunshine and bubble filled life.
Be a dear and pass the Valium.
People are mean. I can't believe someone accused you of being fake. Even though you don't focus on the negative, you certainly don't sugar coat things.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry for everything that's been going wrong. On the bright side, the world is supposed to end on the 21st, so there won't be any need for Christmas presents anyway.
I know, right? Let's keep our fingers crossed. ;)
DeleteI had a feeling you were feeling this way. Say no more. Operation Cheer You Up is in the works! And you are not fake at all! One thing I love about you is that you always look for ways to be fabulous, even when things aren't great. Heck, you should be giving me advice on how to live fabulous and frugal or whatever my blog is supposed to be about. Haha.
ReplyDeleteAww! Thanks Jamie!
DeleteConsidering the last few months that I have had I have been enjoying your happy posts:-) I feel like Dane and I have been sick for 3 months. Blah. PS- She was never sick in CA;-)
ReplyDeleteI know! I was just telling Brian that the other day, that Shye was never sick in CA. She was spoiled with good weather the first year of her life. :)
DeleteI am so sorry to hear how rough things have been. Sick babies are so hard - especially when you're sick, too, and throwing in all those unexpected repair bills is really harsh.
ReplyDeleteBut don't let the trolls get you down! This is your blog, and you can write whatever you damn well please! Trust me, there will always be trolls. Two of my husband's exes are obsessive about my blog and my life. One of them uses the information to send harassing messages and texts, the other likes to gossip ad nauseum about how full of it I am and make pissy little comments about me thinking that I'm not going to find out about it. I take it with a grain of salt; they're really hurting themselves with their negetive attitudes, not me.
I know the truth of my life, and I'm happy with my decisions. I love your blog, and I think you own your life. I hope you feel better soon. And your bangs look amazing in that first picture!
Uggh! I just have to wonder do these people have a life? Where do they find the time?
DeleteThanks for the support! You are always so sweet!
It is so hard to be a blogger, because you have to walk the fine line between sharing enough of your life to "seem real," but you also don't want to air dirty laundry and be a victim....especially as mormon bloggers, we tend to focus on the positive and being thankful and enduring with cheerfulness, because that's at the core of our values...yet we get attacked for it. You can't win! Love your blog, whether it's talking about the positive or negative. You're witty and your family is so cute!
ReplyDeleteAww! Thanks lady! Right back atcha!
Deleteyou are not fake!! and i am not saying that just because I'm your mom, LOL don't let the mean people get you down. there is more than enough misery to go around stay happy, and get well you need to surround yourself with positive people I love your posts and look forward them brightening my day
ReplyDeleteOh mom. Love you too!
DeleteYes, don't let some negative person with nothing better to do get to you. I love your blog. It makes me laugh and it is one of my favorites to read. I'm glad you also vented too because we all need to do that once in a while.
ReplyDeleteThanks Jenny!
DeleteAll I need is an address and the troll will disappear...ask no more questions.
ReplyDeleteDon't tempt me...
DeletePeople suck! Seriously you are not fake if you don't post the bad stuff. Why should we document the crap? Honestly people get a life and stop looking for the bad everywhere. Love you Shawna!
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts exactly. Thanks Megan!
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ReplyDeleteI am not sure how they can say it is fake. Everything seems pretty real to me. Either that or you are REALLY good at photo-shop. What kind of troll emails someone they have never met to insult them? And yes, I am blog-stalking you. Sorry.
ReplyDeleteThe email was more along the lines of that I was making my life out to be more glamourous than it really is. Oh well.
DeleteStalk away! We all do it. :)
I meant that all people and places are real so how could your life be fake? You are very lovely though.
DeleteOMG! anyone who knows you knows you're not fake ... guess haters will be haters! PS - We miss you!
ReplyDeleteI love your blog the way it is and I get the same wrap for mine. I like trying to keep things upbeat and you are very fabulous. Please let me know what I can do to help cheer you up girl. Let's have a ladies night night. Oh and that episode of Downtown Abbey still gets to me.
ReplyDeleteIt's funny, because if you constantly post about the crappy stuff in life the same person would probably say you complain too much! Some people just look for stuff to complain about!
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